Nothing beats this kind of intimacy, when it’s about 3am and it feels like you’re the only two people in the world. There are no words or intentions, you’re just happy lying next to each other knowing that you never want to do this with anyone else. Just to consider that you’re each, essentially, a bag of bones and organs and muscles, and yet you’re both so much more than that because you’ve found each other and suddenly everything makes so much sense.
I know that sometimes I can be a pain in the ass
or you can put it this way; an annoying little bitch.
I know that I upset you with my crazy hairdos,
because you love my long, long hair.
I know that I over analyze things
and get tensed up for no reason.
No, I’m not going to put the blame on pms.
I know that I’m not a good enough girlfriend
because I never know what to say when you’re angry.
I don’t know how you managed to put up with my attitude;
annoying, childish, bratty, dramatic girl, always so insecure
but you did.
We’ve been together for 3 years now. I hope we can stay longer. I really hope so. You’re the only one I want to spend my whole life with. I know it’s hard for us; coming from different backgrounds. Honestly, I have thought about leaving, but I can’t seem to make that move. Why? I want to let you go but something always pulls me back to you. It’s like there’s a chain attached to us. I can’t just throw away such a beautiful thing, can I? I’m not a cruel person. I need you in my life. I’m not gonna say you’re my oxygen (because scientifically, no; mentally, yes) but, you are definitely one of the major reasons of my happiness.You have a space in my heart that no one else ever could have. So if I leave, that space will turn into a big hole filled with nothing but sadness. It’s like, if the hole spreads wider, my heart will just crumble into pieces. I don’t know. I just want us to last, no matter how hard any situation is, no matter what or who comes between us. Sometimes I lie to myself, because I don’t want to believe in the truth, but please believe me when I say I will always be there.
You gave me nothing but sunshine in my life.
I’m sorry for all the wrong things I’ve said and done.
I love you, always will.